June 16, 2014

you know what season i'm talking about!!!!! remember last summer when I was naive and thought those bugs were just one big bug? remember when I kept seeing poor mutilated lizards and FINDING TWO LIZARDS IN REALITY!!!!! REMEMBER???????????

well lucky for me and hermana perez, next to our apt. there is a dip in the grass, and with all the rain lately it has formed a biiiiig puddle, and with that puddle, it has brought hundreds of frogs ribbetting away all through the night.... and I am pretty sure they are ribbetting love songs!!! haha 

ANYWAY. man... missionary appropriate? once again i am unsure.... 

haha!

ANYWAY. so I love the Osorio family, the dad is kind of lessening in interest.... but it's okay. every time we give testimony the spirit is really strong, and the mom cries, and it's just really awesome. He might not just be ready right now, he doesn't have a true desire to know, it's not his goal, it is just something on the side that hey if it's true, he'd join, but eh! he's not feeling it, well without that desire to know, you won't know. so he just needs to understand why it's important to him. which i think is a big reason for anyone who is straying from the gospel, they stop seeing the importance of it for them, or maybe they see it but temptation is too much. Well, man. I just wish that everyone could understand why Heavenly Father has given us the gospel, I wish everyone could understand the true meaning and importance and THE HAPPINESS IN IT!!!! when we are selfish, and want what we want, we do what we want! and we just MISS OUT!! i am tellin you, none of us understand truly the joy that we could potentially have if we would truly just give our will to the Father, but we are so stubborn so he keeps just slowly working on us! haha i am grateful that he is patient :) 

BUT! man i love them, we were leaving, and one of the younger kids, who was really shy at first, and has warmed up a lot, he always surprises us with fruit rolls!!! or whatever they are called, cause we LOVE them! and so when we were leaving he runs out and says ONE MORE THING!! and gives them to us and we screeeeam and jump for joy! haha and I fist pumped jumped into the air and hit a branch and it has just rained and so ALL THE WATER from the big branch dropped on me and I screamed again and got all wet. hahaha they laughed at me.

listen everyone I have a problem. I am getting MUCH TOO ATTACHED to things and people out here on the mission. I'm serious it's a problem!! If i see a bug in the house, even just a little gnat, and i wait more than 3 seconds to kill it, suddenly in my mind it has a name, a wife, a life, and kids waiting at home for him!!! and i can't do it!!! i feel so bad!!! I EVEN NAMED THE ANNOYING CLICKING MONSTER IN MY WALL!!! his name is bruce. and i only named him because if i yell and raise my hand to hit him he stops, SO i am convinced that there is something really in there just making me miserable and tired.... haha but anyway..............................

OOOOH MAN!!! there is an awesome family in the ward who just moved in and are SO READY to do missionary work! it is so cool!!!! we took them out to the park square area in their community, and it was lightening like craazy so we went into a little icecream/pottery place! and we taught them a little on how to do missionary work, and just making conversation with people and connecting with them, and then inviting to something, and we were able to talk to almost everyone in the little store!!! and she was AMAZING!! a natural i am telling you!! she is so excited to do missionary work, and invite and think of cool ways to get her friends involved, it is so awesome to see. when it turns into a desire instead of an obligation, all the fear kinda withers away!! it's so cool!!!

okay so this week, we had a rough one! which i am grateful for. we prayed for faith in finding, and our teaching pool has withered away... we plan at night now and we're like... hmmm.... uhhh... wellll!!!! no one. blip blop NADA!!! NADA single person!! hahaha get it? not a single person, nada single person, HAHA

anyway for real though. and one day was particularly dry of people, and teaching. every single person we met rejected us, it was crazy! it's true! and some were mean, some were nice, but all rejections. haha at the end of the night I was just thinking about our loyalty, and where our love is in the work, and i was honestly grateful to have been rejected all day long and not teach at all, because I was able to see that my love for the Lord has grown, and is real. I was going through the day, and I wasn't unhappy, I wasn't bugged or questioning the Lord, I was just thinking alright i will do whatever it takes! because I love you! AND THAT WAS SO COOL!!! to be able to understand that we aren't supposed to be happy just when we are teaching, but we need to be grateful for it all. we will always be in debt to him, and he asks us to do this because we love him. and besides, I KNOW that heavenly father set up our day like that for a reason, to test us and see if we really will do it and keep doing, no matter how many rejections we get! i feel like those people rejected us that day, not because they will never accept the gospel, or bad luck, but because we had to learn something! if that makes sense... cause i don't think that was there only chance, i just think we missionaries need more opposition than usual.

MAN that was scattered and I feel like it's weak BUT I JUST can't express my feelings about it well enough! haha anyway, it was just cool.

WELL i GOTTA Go!!!!

I love you all, and ONCE AGAIN!!! if i could give any message to the world, or to any of you, it would be love :) i will say it forever and ever!!! WE ALL NEED MORE LOVE!!! people need to be treated with more kindness, and patience, we need to stop judging so harshly! and that goes for myself as well! we just gotta forget about ourselves and love everyone around us. with all our hearts, even if we get hurt sometimes by their actions. it is more worth it to love, than it is to not let anyone into your life. Jesus Christ got betrayed and hurt, and still gets betrayed and hurt, and he loves us so much and it is so painful for him to watch us turn away sometimes, or just be dumb, but he just keeps on loving. he would never shut us out or push us away or close his heart, he just loves us, even if it's hard, and he fights for us. so DO NOT CLOSE YOUR HEART! even though it's hard sometimes, just love everyone, and when you do that, just genuinely love everyone, regardless of whether they like you back, or how they treat you, you will have confidence in who you are, and you will not doubt your worth, because you see everyone else's worth. SO!!!!

I LOVE YOOOU ALLLLLLL!!!!!
hasta luego mis amigos :)

Look how cool!!!! Friday the 13th.... Says it on my watch... Full
moon!!!! AND sister Bowe is into borrow and lots of stuff and did art
a lot and she made us Jason pancakes, hahaha!! So funny.