boy what a week. EVERY week is just a whole new best experience ever. haha
okay. i'm starting off with the spiritual cause its the most important!!
first of all let me tell you all that I already know the hardest day is gonna be when they release me and i no longer can wear my name tag. it is my FAVORITE part of the day, putting it on, honestly, it's just a tag but it means so much to me it's crazy, i love being a missionary. LOVE IT.
one big thing i learned this week was trusting in God's promises. that is suuuch a huge deal. I didn't realize till this week HOW SERIOUS god's promises are, he will NEVER break them. story time. so when i was younger i had an experience where i tried to pray about the book of mormon but before i could finish my prayer got a terrible sick feeling in my stomach and stopped praying and just started crying, i was so scared the church might not be true, and it was the woooorst night ever. well, I continued reading my scriptures, going to church and everything, because those were the only times i felt better, but ever since then, i was terrified to ever ask god a question like that, or to recieve a confirmation on something, and I would literally skip over any scripture stating that if you ask God, he will manifest the truth of it unto you, specifically moroni 10:3-5, because i didn't think i believed it, or maybe i didn't want to believe it because i didn't think god had answered me, SO. in class, we had an incredible lesson about the book of mormon, and it's power and truth, and a teacher shared a story about how he wasn't sure in the beginning of his mission if the BoM was true, i mean he knew but he'd never recieved that confirmation, so he was trying to tell someone about it one day and she just didn't believe him, so he promised her if she would go home and pray about it, he would too, and see what happened. well he did it, and recieved his answer, and it wasn't until a year later that he ran into her again, she had been baptized, and she said that it wasn't because of his testimony, that didn't really lure her in, because she couldn't feel the power and truth of it, but because something else pulled her into it, and that she could tell now that he really knew. so REALLY knowing is so important. that got me to thinking, and I realized that Satan had won this battle over me for five years, i've always had a strong testimony but that was holding me back more than i ever knew. so I prayed about it, sincerely throughout a whole day. and by the end of the day, we had district testimony meeting, and through the meeting the spirit was so strong that I literally was physically weak, i could barely write down my thoughts, I felt like the people in the book of mormon when it says they fell to the earth being overcome by the spirit, it was incredible. and so amazing, GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS AND KEEPS PROMISES. if you pray sincerely, and my teacher also said that if you pray about the book of mormon and don't recieve a witness, you did it wrong. because it is a promise. read, ponder SINCERELY, and if you actually truly desire to know, then pray, in the name of CHRIST (which is so sacred and important: bible dictionary under prayer, read it all!!!) you will recieve an answer.
BOY!, that was long, haha sorry! but anyways, it was just amazing, i had to share it.
one more spiritual thought! for questions about if the spirit is there or if you feel it or not, what i've been realizing is that i can really physically feel it when i'm recieving revelation or being guided or it's testifying that the words i'm speaking or someone else is speaking are true, but just because it isn't really strong doesn't mean it isn't there! we have the GIFT of the holy ghost, meaning it is our companion constantly, if we choose. so, what you really need to focus on is when you know it isn't there, and change the situation.
alright. SO! this week, i have two fake investigators, miguel and maria, we're working on maria's faith, and working on miguel's actual interest, cause he believes it all! he thinks it's great, but so far we haven't really gotten him hooked, he doesn't seem to apply it to his life yet, and gets distracted easily! but i have a good feeling about our next lesson :) it's super cool! they are both actually our terachers but even though they're fake you can still teach with the spirit and feel their pain and everything just as much, it's really amazing.
lets seeee i've been eating HORRIBLY lately... haha let me tell you my dinner last night. 3 rolls... cereal... and icecream with brownies. the gym after was a nightmare, haha my body was so weak, it was bad. sooo gonna start being better about that!! BUT in other news :) i got 5 3 pointers iin a row at gym :) WOOOO!! hahaha not that awesome but we all just have our own records we try and beat every day so it's a big deal here!
oh boy, i love my companion! she's the best, and ALL the people in my district, i don't think i can say it enough! when the spirit is with us so much it is crazy how quickly you love the people the around and treat them like family. i love it here, TANTOOOOO!!! (so much)
well lets see. not much else happens! haha it's the same schedule almost every day... but uh, just know that life is great everybody, trust in God and know he loves you and if you LISTEN to him and do what you know is right you will never end up in a situation too hard, and you will find strength to get you through the situations you are in. yo se que con todo mi corazon :) (sorry no accents or anything) that means i know it with all my heart. it's true. LOVE YOU ALL!!!
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